i'm sad. i may be depressed. i don't know. i was trying to be excited about christmas and everything. i got everybody to get everyone gifts... it feel like charades though.

i don't like how the year is ending either. my dad is gambling about every week. my mom is broke. i'm getting depressed. i feel like bf is distancing himself from me. i have no control over anything. i have to quit smoking (lol no fun!)

whatever.