i barely talk to my bf anymore. in the last week, i think i talked to him 3 times. all 3 times were small talk bullshit. it consisted of us repeatedly asking each other what the other was doing.

during finals week my brother slipped about something... something had happened to bf or something. so i kept asking my bro... i asked bf... nobody would tell me. finally after my finals, he told me he was in a car accident. he wanted to wait to tell me after finals so i wouldn't be worried. ok.

he had told me that while we ate dinner at denny's. afterwards, we went to his house to watch tv and he took off his beanie. his hair was braided. i was shocked... i asked him who did it for him. he said some chick's name from school. i don't know this girl. last year was rushing back to me. i hate braiding his hair and shit... but please be someone i know. last year better not happen again.

man, i don't know what i feel anymore. i felt some distancing before but it was usually because of me. this time... i don't know! karma's a bitch huh.

i don't know what goes on with him anymore. he doesn't tell me. he doesn't update his journal thing either. he doesn't text msg me anymore. i text'd him a couple times... then he kinda yelled at me to stop cuz it costs too much.

our four year anniversary is coming up in about a week and a half. four fucking years!