i feel like a loser.

i kept wondering and wondering if he was going to call me yesterday. he did earlier in the day to tell me he wants to kill himself because he's probably getting a c in math. he can't have a 'c' because he doesn't work, his parents think he has no excuses to have bad grades. i try to tell him i understand and he keeps telling me i don't understand. i guess he cean't share the misery. it has to be about him and only him.

i think i'm obsessing about him. i wonder why i am and this is what i came up with. i don't really go out anymore. he knows i'm always home. i'm going to spend more time with my friends. or hopefully find a job to consume all this free time i have. i want him to worry about me again. and maybe get him to come here for a change.