it seems like i'm dependent. how pathetic huh. what happened to me? i dunno i feel as if the world is passing me by... i'm sitting on a street corner confused not knowing which way to turn. and everyone else has a map. or a friend they can call for directions. that's the mental picture i have of myself. i always say that's what you'll see if you went inside my brain. me sitting on the curb of a street corner with my head in my hands. the street sign has a milliion street names pointing in every direction.. a big ol' question mark in a thought bubble. yup. that's what you'll see.

anyways.. i dunno where this post is going.. it's almost 5 am... i'm disappointed.. i can't sleep.. senselessness has settled in. i'll just stop this now. i'll prolly delete this post tomorrow anyway.