i hope all this sadness is just birthday blues.
waiting.
for a tear-free day.
a happy moment.
i hope it comes soon.
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i've noticed i get a lot of hits from my entry about my car problems... eh ok. well, i've barely fixed any of those things. in fact the only thing i did get fixed was the window.
new list of problems:
_tires. rear driver has nail. rear passenger keeps losing air. time to replace. has it even been a year since last? ai yah.
_brakes. it's bad. i keep driving and it's digging in to the rotor. i ordered all the parts and ready to do it except i need someone to jack my car. it's been a month since my brother said he'd help me. he keeps postponing it to the next weekend. argh.
_spark plugs. have them. missing one tool. been lazy to get it. should do soon. almost 120,000 miles. omg.
_i'm tired of my steering wheel play. been looking it up online. most likely worn flexible coupling. hopefully that's it.
_need new wheel sensor! yup, i'm driving around with no stability control. sweet.
_stupid windshield wiper fluid tank thingy's pump is leaking or it died. i poured a shitload of that stupid fluid and found a puddle on the ground. ugh.
_have service engine light on. i hope its nothing serious so i can ignore it. well i've been ignoring it for about 20000 miles now. yikes.
_need to change oil soon. easy peasy.
_maybe i should flush transmission and all that good stuff. expensive.
_water stains. i know i can get it off the windows, but i dunno how to get it off the body. maybe i can't. which sucks. i don't wash my car because as soon as it dries, it looks like it never was washed. stupid hard water stains. although i washed it today. it looks nice. except my driver side since thats the side that gets hit by the dumb sprinklers.
i think there's more but i need some sleep. picking my mom from airport in 10 hours. i was kinda missing her until i realized she'd be back. i know she'll be screaming at me tomorrow. i must remind myself to not be so fragile and ignore her. well it's not like anything that she will be yelling at me for, is my fault. somehow tho, she will turn shit around and it'll be my fault. i dunno. we'll see.
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p7/13-17
