i am such a fucked up friend. maybe i shouldn't call myself a friend. i missed one of my best friends wedding monday. i don't even know if i'm considered her bf or if i consider her MY bf. i never call or anything. i don't know anything about whats going on in her life. well she did tell me about the wedding and how she's expecting. i just feel so fucked up. i missed her wedding, i missed another two friends' graduations. this fucking social anxiety is gonna make me end up alone. i need to something about that.

anyway, i missed her wedding cuz i went to buy a car. i *did* think i would be done in time to go to her wedding, but i was wrong. i didn't get home til 1pm. but yeah. i love my cute lil car! i hope it lasts a long time so i don't have to buy another car for awhile. yuuuuup.

omfg. i hear that song "i swear" LOL that was 8th grade i believe.... that song got on my nerves actually. it was on the radio all the time.

so anyway.

i'm getting a lil frustrated. sexually. have not had sex in like 2 months. maybe more? the first month was because i was sick. when i'm sick, i don't like to do anything. and the second month... just no time. i'm actually not really caring... but bf is gettin antsy. it's just my bro's been coming with me over there... so we barely have alone time. but the days we are alone, he makes me do his fucking hair. which takes so much time that afterwards i just wanna go home! well whatever

god damn. i'm sleepy. i dunno what's wrong with me. lately, i've been sleeping reallly late for no reason. i just stay up. and when i do fall asleep... i don't sleep very well. i fear these bags/dark circles are going to be permanant. that would fucking suck ass. so now i should just turn my goddamn laptop off and just sleep. yes.

byers.