i just heard from a "friend" yesterday. he's not like a friend friend. he's a friend i made over the internet like 5 years ago. we've never met, just talk on the phone. it's funny cuz we live like an hour away from each other. and when he called, we were in the same area, just on opposite directions on the freeway. crazy. so anyway, he tells me he's getting married. he just bought a house that's about $600,000. and this guy is my age!!! i'm so jealous. no, not jealous of that stuff. i'm jealous that he has his shit together to do that stuff. i'm still dependent on mommy and daddy. FUCK. i need to get my act together. unless it's too late....

i don't know if anyone else heard about something big going down tomorrow. at least according to some lady that was on kroq a couple times. i've never actually heard her talk, but from my brothers. sooo if the sun sets really late, like 2 hours later, then the earth is slowing down... spinning-wise. i don't necessarily believe it, but i'm open to that possibility. what else can you do right? but ANYWAYS. enough with the crazy talk.

i've been hella crabby lately. i catch myself screaming at the bf. i don't know what it is. oh god, please tell me i'm not..... nm.

this is my last week of school. thank god for that. i'm so fucking sick of driving.

i've gotta lose at least 10 pounds in a month. is that possible? or healthy?