hahaha he came home last night. he told my mom that he drove all the way to barstow when he realized he was on call for his other job. i asked if he gave the money back and she said no. his friend borrowed it. UH HUH. stupid ass. we all know he went to an indian casino and spent it all. dumb ass.

i put up a new guestbook. i couldn't remember my login for the other one... and i couldn't remember what email i used to sign up. yeah soooo if you're reading this, sign it. lol jk.

no, i'm not kidding. sign!

anyway.

i'm home alone. i'm lying. i'm home with my little sister. my brothers went out. my mom's working. my dad went camping with his family out in laughin. why didn't the rest of us go with him? because we HATE his family. LOL although that may be true, that wasn't the reason. laughlin is hot. laughlin is boring. now add my dad's psycho side of the family... it just ain't pretty. i'd go insane.

we all think he didn't go. he asked my mom for 200 buckaroos. for camping? whatever. you know what he'll use that money for. fucker. i don't see why he went anyway. i always thought he didn't really like them. i don't. hahahaha.

i haven't seen my bf in a week. i'm starting to really really really miss him. actually, i just wanna get some. haven't had any in awhile.

puahahahahhahaa

i don't know. i'm like in depression mode. and i'm really irritable. i need a vacation NOW!

dah well....

i just heard from a "friend" yesterday. he's not like a friend friend. he's a friend i made over the internet like 5 years ago. we've never met, just talk on the phone. it's funny cuz we live like an hour away from each other. and when he called, we were in the same area, just on opposite directions on the freeway. crazy. so anyway, he tells me he's getting married. he just bought a house that's about $600,000. and this guy is my age!!! i'm so jealous. no, not jealous of that stuff. i'm jealous that he has his shit together to do that stuff. i'm still dependent on mommy and daddy. FUCK. i need to get my act together. unless it's too late....

i don't know if anyone else heard about something big going down tomorrow. at least according to some lady that was on kroq a couple times. i've never actually heard her talk, but from my brothers. sooo if the sun sets really late, like 2 hours later, then the earth is slowing down... spinning-wise. i don't necessarily believe it, but i'm open to that possibility. what else can you do right? but ANYWAYS. enough with the crazy talk.

i've been hella crabby lately. i catch myself screaming at the bf. i don't know what it is. oh god, please tell me i'm not..... nm.

this is my last week of school. thank god for that. i'm so fucking sick of driving.

i've gotta lose at least 10 pounds in a month. is that possible? or healthy?