it's so tough waiting! i have a week and half til my first prenatal appointment. i hope i get to hear a heartbeat. i feel like that when i do, i can stop worrying so much and be happy/excited.

My dear baby,

I hope you are growing normally. I'm sorry for any obstacles you are going through. Mommy is trying to control blood sugar and trying to keep stress down. You need to know that I'm at my last 5 days of nursing school... so please hang in there and just keep growing!!

I love you so much already!
mama

i think i'm preggers. took two tests yesterday and they both came out positive. got some fancy ass one that told me i'm more than 3 weeks. wtf? i already told brothers, brother's gf, sister, mom, and cousin. husband is pretty excited. i hope i dont lose it, my blood glucose isn't exactly under control. i'm so scared. i don't know what to do next.