i saw fetus again today!!! and his/her heart is still beating!! ♥♥♥

so my first prenatal was yesterday... i got to see my fetus' heart beating!!! i didn't cry in the office... but now thinking about it makes me wanna cry. when she tried to do the vaginal ultrasound... it wouldn't stay still... somersaulting all over the place.. my little cutie hehe

i got labs done. i had to have 11 vials of blood taken.. probably the most i ever had to do.. i have gotten some results back already. my a1c is 6.3! well, i think they want pregnant diabetics to be under 6 so i'm going to have to work on that. otherwise, everything else is coming back normal! i'm so happy!

in other news... i had failed both attempts at my exit exam and had to retake seminar with a classmate. our teacher is ok, she is way cooler than i thought she was. i always thought she looked mean. i'm learning a lot IN CLASS but i'm not studying at home. i really need to!!! i need to pass this dumb exam and be DONE!!!!!

i'm so glad i'm not friends with happy anymore. especially when i hear stories of her texting other people lol i hope i NEVER see her again.

ok, now to attempt some studying :)

it's so tough waiting! i have a week and half til my first prenatal appointment. i hope i get to hear a heartbeat. i feel like that when i do, i can stop worrying so much and be happy/excited.

My dear baby,

I hope you are growing normally. I'm sorry for any obstacles you are going through. Mommy is trying to control blood sugar and trying to keep stress down. You need to know that I'm at my last 5 days of nursing school... so please hang in there and just keep growing!!

I love you so much already!
mama

i think i'm preggers. took two tests yesterday and they both came out positive. got some fancy ass one that told me i'm more than 3 weeks. wtf? i already told brothers, brother's gf, sister, mom, and cousin. husband is pretty excited. i hope i dont lose it, my blood glucose isn't exactly under control. i'm so scared. i don't know what to do next.