this weekend was bad. we have no money for a week. we only have $20!! so i couldn't go buy salad and all the stuff i needed. i ended up eating whatever we had in the house. plus on saturday, i had to accompany mother-in-law to take doggie who passed away the night before to animal shelter since no one could come pick him up before tuesday. afterwards, she took me to a buffet. i couldn't say no because i know she just wanted to get her mind off of doggie. i didn't eat any rice or noodles. i did eat a lot of shrimp, crab, and cheese. cheese is my weakness. surprisingly, my after-dinner readings that day was not as high as i expected. it was 135. today though, i ate some orange chicken (frozen from costco) that hubby made. i ate it with some brown rice. 2 hours later, my reading was 160. yikes! i guess that means i shouldn't eat orange chicken anymore.

i got my lab results. some lady called and said my doctor wasn't in but the doctor covering her wanted me to make an appointment to see my doc. ugh. no thanks. i'll wait til she calls me again and tells me to come in. my triglycerides went down. still high though, its 200 something. my a1c is still high but it's a point lower than it was a couple weeks ago. i believe that's progress because a1c measures blood in the past 2-3 months. i've only been diagnosed 2 months ago! i don't see how she thinks my a1c can drop that fast. crazy.

i'm too tired to post my results. i'll do it tomorrow. i think i should sleep now so i can do all the hw/studying that i've put off all weekend and cram it all tomorrow! yippee.

supposed to do homework today, looks like i won't be.

so around 6pm i felt kind of jittery. i thought maybe i should check my bs. i had a reading of 108. i guess the jitters came from all the tea i had been drinking all day! btw, mighty leaf tea is the best freaking tea i have ever tasted!! expensive tho :(

my bs last night was pretty high: 141... and that was with exercise after dinner. i guess this means i can't eat marie callender's chicken pot pie anymore :( my morning fasting was 119.

today, i used the wii to do some exercises after lunch. i did the advanced step a couple times, some strength stuff, and a little yoga. for dinner, i had a hamburger with one slice of multigrain bread. i jumped on the treadmill afterwards for 30 minutes... waited another hour (i check 2 hours after dinner) and it was 80! i think that's the lowest i've seen it. what's weird is i don't feel all hypo... last time when it was under 90 i felt shaky. i wonder what this means.

all i know is i'm tired. i kind of want to stay up to do hw but maybe i should sleep instead and do it in the morning. yeah, that's what i'll do.

i didn't get to see hubby this weekend. i miss him so much. i told him that i want to start couch potato to 5k... i want to be able to run! i asked if he was proud of me. since december, i've lost 8 pounds. i measured myself and in a month, i have lost 1 inch from underbust and 2 inches from waist. he told me he's always proud of me :)

i just hope i can get this shit under control pronto. i want to start trying for a baby at the end of the year.

health.

so, i'm not on metformin anymore. it was giving me gi problems. my doc put me on glipizide instead. i take that sucker before breakfast and dinner. she also put my on lipitor but it was giving me a muscle cramp/spasm in my left leg. it also made me feel arthritic cuz my knees started aching... then my ankles... and then my toe joints. i stopped taking it the day before clinical because i suspected the lipitor and didn't want to suffer during clinical. i didn't bother taking it again. i told my doc that friday and she told me to stop taking it. she says we'll focus on the diabetes for now and see if the cholesterol will get better naturally.

i also got sick last week so i only got to exercise 2 days =( today was the first time i got back into it. hopefully my sugars will go down. i had one reading of 146 and one of 111. the rest were 120ish. my after dinner reading right now was 120.

i had some labs done the friday i saw my doc. my sodium is back to normal. it was 134 before and now its 136. yes! hopefully that's a sign that things are getting better. there was bad news though. i think the lipitor was damaging my liver. before i found out, my doc had prescribed me 600mg ibuprofen for sore throat to use as needed. and boy did i need it. i think i may have taken 6 pills that weekend. so i'm hoping that i didn't do too much damage =(

i just watched a documentary called food matters. wow. i'm wondering if i should try a "plant-based" diet for now. i have to take fasting labs in about 2 weeks. i wonder what my numbers could be if i tried. my whole problem is school. i need to start planning out how to take food to school. there aren't too many good options for me in any of the food places we go to.

school.

found out my director is sda. she goes to the church my parents now attend. was a big shock to me. she sucks. she's not a good director.

i hate my clinical instructor. i thought she may be nice... not really. i hate her. she isn't nurturing or helpful like my last one. oh how i miss her. this one doesn't help me at all. she makes me feel dumb and inadequate. wtf.

i also hate the other ob clinical instructor. why is she trying to give us more work? stupid tattle-tell.

i just can't wait to be finished.