it's now 2013. the world didn't end.
i'm halfway done with nursing school. it's so hard. i need to study harder. i failed my medsurg final. thank god i passed the retake, if i hadn't i would've had to retake the class. that would be so embarrassing. this quarter is ob/peds. i like my ob teacher, she's very knowledgeable and engaging. i have my first clinical in a couple days and i'm so scared. i'm already awkward around adults, i don't know how i'll handle kids and their parents! hopefully i'm just just building it up in my mind and it turns out better than i thought.
in december of 2012, i found out that i have diabetes. wow, that was hard to type. had to take a second there to continue.... i have been struggling with high blood sugars for a couple years but never had insurance so i didn't do anything about it. i wish instead of traumatizing me, my mom would be comforting and helped me. but i can't blame her. ultimately it's my fault that i didn't do anything.
through a non-fasting blood test, i had a a1c of 10.7. i couldn't believe it. i had exercised all through 2011. i had a physical before i started school and my blood sugar was normal. it didn't click with me that i should've been in maintenance mode. i started school and didn't have time for home-packed lunches. so, i ate out for lunch. i started sleeping less because of studying and homework, so i would drink sodas. then i had a couple quarters where i was school 4 days a week. that was at least 4 meals and 4 sodas a week. then i'd come home and eat out with hubby and had sodas. i have no idea how much my avg calories were. probably through the roof. i gained all the weight i lost the previous year in less than a year. i barely could make it to the gym. i was too tired and didn't have time. i always told myself i'd make time the following week and it never happened.
so yesterday was the first time i saw my doctor since she called to tell me i have diabetes. she put me on metformin 500mg once a day. i'm also supposed to test my blood sugars after dinner and when i wake up. it took me 20 minutes to work up the courage to prick myself. the dumb thing is i had to do it a couple times to find a setting that produced enough blood. it was 208. this morning, i still had a lot of trouble and wasted a bunch of lancets and test strips. i had to use 4 fingers until finally i got enough. it was 148.
i also had some lipid labs. it blew me away about how high the results were. i mean, deep down inside, i kind of knew that they would be high but it's devastating to see them laid out like that.
i guess i will be turning this blog into journal of my quest for health. my goals this week is to join a gym near my parents house. its time to take it serious. let's do this!!
12/17/2012
a1c 10.7
1/25/2013
a1c 9.9
cholesterol 219
triglyceride 434
hdl 41
ldl 118
