my birthday is on thursday. i'm getting old. i thought i would have at least one child by now. i'm secretly (ok, maybe not so secretly) scared that i'll never have kids. it's just that i won't even be done with school til january 2014. we still won't be good financially... ugh, i hate my life.

i'm starting clinicals tomorrow. i'm scared shitless. trying not to think about it so i won't freak out right now. i am predicting that i will wake up multiple times in the night sweating.

i really miss my husband. i really hate this arrangement. i wish he would just try to get a freaking job down here. make that two jobs, so we can be together. commuting weekends to spend 2 days with him... not the business. there's gotta be some other way... unfortunately, all other options costs money that we totally don't have. fuck.

i'm so awkward. i should just embrace that shit.

seriously though... wtf life, what am i here to learn? cuz i'm tired of this shit.