I still cry.

grandpa, i'm sorry that I didn't spend a lot of time with you last time I saw you. I was a stupid brat that was sure I'd have another next time. I feel so guilty. I'll never forget how happy you were to see us that you were crying. I loved how proud and excited you were to show me your house. especially that third floor... you had to climb those steep ass stairs that you had no business climbing but you wanted to show me. I'm sorry you never got to meet my husband and that you won't get to play with my future kids. I'm so sorry I took time for granted. I hope you know you were loved. at least you are with grandma again and that kinda makes me smile. especially now that I know you used to walk about 50 miles just to date her :)