christmas is here. don't have a tree though. can't find our fake tree. too lazy to get a real tree. just doesn't seem like christmas without a tree haha.


i ended up with a "C" in physiology. that sucked. i really wanted a "B". but i guess i didn't want it bad enough.

he started a medical program and is doing GREAT! i'm soooo proud of him. two nights ago we were talking and he was talking about the future. like he wants us to move out soon.

OMG i totally forgot to blog about my car. it was totaled :( some stupid ass ran the stop sign. i'll add more about it later. so yeah, i now have to search for a new car. well, new-for-me car LOL i'm lookin for a manual 330i. i hope i can find one. and i hope i can get it before school starts. i don't know what i'll drive if i don't :(

so yeah. all caught up basically.

oh and i got my p today. only been 4 months since the last one, not the usual 8-9 months in between. awesome.

everything is stressing me out.


i need a job.

i need more time.

....


self note-aug 4:p

yay i got my period today! hurts like hell but shit it's great. it's been 8-9 months since i had it last. i really need to start doing something to get it regular though.

i got 61 on my muscle lab practical.

my grade dropped from 79% to 76%.

great.

i had spring break last week and i was pretty productive the first half of the week. then i got really lazy and just wanted veg out, sleep and watch tv all day/night long. my brain turned into mush in a couple of days. i really don't want to go to school tomorrow. *sigh*

i'm pissed.

i got a 65 on my cvs test.

my grade dropped from B to C.

fuck anatomy.

i'm so depressed.

haven't had "death-would-be-easier" thoughts in awhile.

mom was gone for a week. within an hour, she made me feel like crap.

:(

lately i've been feeling like... i want to have a kid.

i'm scared i won't be able to because i haven't had my period since my birthday. that's about 5 months ago. before that, i can't even remember....

i wish i had health insurance.

:(

first day of school today.

i'm nervous.

i hate school.

i just read some of "recent" posts and i never updated about the new house. we canceled the $858,000 house and went with one $200,000 cheaper. what's cool about it is my cousins are moving in the same neighborhood too! we move first though since ours was part of phase 1. move-in date is end of this month/beginning of february. we had the walk-through yesterday and gosh our house is nice! lol we had a lot of upgrades done. the only things we need to do is take care of the flooring in the family room, kitchen and secondary bedrooms. i can't wait to move. i'm so tired of sharing a room with my stupid little sister. speaking of the devil, that dumb girl is becoming a scenester. our worst nightmare. ugh.

ok so in other update news (hehe) i got a bass for christmas. it's a hoffner copy. it's pretty damn nice. i'm not taking lessons just yet... i hope one day i will. for now, i just got some instructional dvd and so far so good :) my sister got drums and she did just as i had predicted. she fucked around with it for awhile and now she doesn't touch them. i got her a dvd too but she didn't even watch it. wow. she's so dumb. i hate her.

oh yeah. other changes... i decided not to go any further for my major. i'm going to finish up the certification but i'm going into nursing. yes, i said it. i finally broke down and will just go for it. fuck it man. if i hate it... oh well. i'll make bank til i figure out what the hell i would enjoy doing. so yeah. the boyfriend is also doing it with me. we'll be applying in a year! so hopefully in a year, there will be good news :)

that's all i can think of right now.