so he told me that he would come back today if he didn't get his visa. he's not here so i'm guessing he got his visa. i wish he didn't. i need him to be here so i could bore him with my boring life. i need to talk to him cuz no one knows me like he does. i mean *j might but i haven't shared with her in a long time and i feel like sometimes when we talk it gets awkward. i guess i'll work on it. oh i ditched *c's bday thing. she got all pissy about it even when i explained what happened. it's not my fault that she changed her plans last second (literally) and expects me to change plans and stuff. so fuck it. i don't care. she may think she knows me... but she doesn't. i bet she doesn't even know my ex's name. so whatever. i ain't gonna try to talk to her first. she'll have to make that move. ANYWAYS

i miss my boyfriend so much. he's having fun without me. i'm jealous. no fair.

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he's leaving sunday night/monday morning. he'll be back in about two months. i'm gonna be so lonely this summer. well, i'll keep myself busy with my nine units of summer school. sad.