it's been almost four months since i've blogged here. it seems like a lot has happened since then... but then nothing has happened. is that weird?

school is a drag. i just finished my spring break and i start school again on monday. the week went by too fast. i didn't get to do anything that i had wanted to do. like, clean and organize my room, finish up homework, study, catch up on reading... stuff like that. instead, i did nothing. i can't remember doing anything. so just as i said, a lot has happened but nothing has happened.... it's the same as time. time goes fast... but then it doesn't. i feel like the day goes by slow so i procrastinate until there is no time left and i have to do stuff the next day.... next thing i know, the week is over and i have nothing done. i'm really struggling with this.

what is time? i hear that there really is no time. that it's just................... ugh. i don't even want to get into that. it's 3am and i'm tired. my back hurts. i'd like to go to sleep but i can't. my mind won't let me. i have lots of things going on in my head... but i have no thoughts. my mind is blank. i don't know what is going on here. i'm confused. i need something. i don't know what it is.